living with Loss

 Consequential loss

Loss...what is it

could it be

Losing

ones

soul

support

or

Life 

often is 

seriously

sick

waking again, peering out, close the curtain

                                                not today, my brain says

                                                        not now, my soul screams

                     fuck this world

loss never ends

missing something that will never be filled, replaced, understood

loss




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